* TIMESCENTRE is LOVE. =)))

20 FEBRUARY 2008 WEDNESDAY

i realised i've not updated in a week already, ouwh myy. how atrocious i am at being faithful to my dear blog.

i was so lethargic to recollect the day's event at work, and to update them here. by the time im all settled down at home, i'd be utmost reluctant to switch on the laptop considering how i've already spent the last 9++ hours in my day with one.

ouwh what technology.

so here's a new idea.! to type whatever i'm thinking/feeling/doing/etc whenever i feel like talking to myself while at work.! hahahaa.

if you've yet to know. i have the whole resource library to myself, cos that is where my job is. though the whole vibe of being immensely surrounded with books and knowledge is a pleasure, this job is undeniably socially retarding i must say. hahaha.


9.35AM
my dear very-sweet-and-very-nice supervisor just came in to check on my progress, and to enquire about the boxes. you have no idea what the boxes are doing to my poor hands.! nonetheless, i do welcome the frequent-occasional sensation of pain, aside all the coldness. ouwh my, i sound utterly morbid.! hahahaa.

"you think by friday can finish or not.?"
"yeah, i think tmr is also possible."
"okay, tmr. aiyah nvm lah.! friday finish, get another day salary.! hahahaa."
"hahahaa.!"

that's my supervisor.! =)))


9.51am
(laptop just hibernated cos i forgot to switch on the plug- was charging my hp.! HAHA.)

okay, back to work againnn. whee.


11.25am
im done packing all the books from the shelves! (except the malay and chinese books- which i've nooo idea how to key into the catalogue.!) okay. i need mandarin lessons. haha.

anyway. the last batch were COOKING BOOKS.! OMG lahhh. such aphrodisiacs.! hahahaa. im tempted to zap them all, if not, take them home altogether.! hahaha. okay, i shall stop having criminal intends- if a book really does go missing and the company reads my blog, im a roasted suckling pig.! HAHAHA.

well anyway. i've taken down some of the recipes. cakes and fondants especially, goshhh i totally dig those. hahahaa.

IM GONNA START A NEW BAKERY FRANCHISE.! =))))

lunch in one hour. im soo gonna be busy zapping pages.! im doing it for dearest mum too okayyy. HEE.


12.07pm
dear miss supervisor just visited again- she printed me the catalogue list that i prepared.

"you starting with the malay books already? relax! don't do so fast, i give you permission to read the books."

hahahaa. she's so sweet lah please.! not that i've not been reading the books already, but still.! hahahaa.

so? GREEN LIGHTS to COPYING RECIPES.! HEE.!

PS: i've completed 48 boxes, two more and we'll be out of boxes.! MsSupervisor just ordered 30 more (cos the company's paying, haha!) but i doubt i'll need that much.! ouwh myy.

PPS: i shall consider starting a boxing company (as in kotak and not tumbok.! haha.)


12.20pm
The box company people (sorry for terming them so fervently, limited vocab uh, haha.) just came in with the nex boxes. he said my present boxes are too HEAVY.! HAHAHA.

he even showed the markings on the boxes - 'MAX. WEIGHT 16 KG' but it really was obsolete to me (and even MsSupervisor!) cos we definitely do not have a weighing scale in here.! hahahaa.

it was a light-hearted conversation, so i eventually got my way to leave the already prepared boxes as it is. hee. MsSupervisor and i were imagining how much 16kg is to be compared with.
she said a bag of 10kg rice, so the box is reallyy heavy.
i said at least three bags of 5kg rice, so the box is still alright.!

HAHAHAA. okay, enough nonsense. lunch time, lunch time.!

i havent been eating proper lunch since day 2 of work- reminds me of my school days.! old habits are hard to lose lahhh. hohoho.

4.14PM
I've just did some countings during teabreak- there's at least 2400 books that i've packed.! hahahaa. and i've realised. not only are my hands scared by papercuts, even my legs were victimised.! ouwh, cos i've been kicking the boxes to move it around the room- extraordinarily heavy lahhh. hahahaa.

tu lahhh, tendang2 lagiii. tu kan ilmu, respect.! (omg, i had to think hard to recall that respect is hormat in malay. karat, karattt.! hahahaa.)

ouwh. and i've just found out. the books will all be shifted and stored in a warehouse, doomed to be lost and forgotten forever. left to decompose also, perhaps.

wasted books, such a sad thing.!

PS: i should have kept those cooking books instead of packing them.! now humans will be deprived of pretty cakes and scrumptious recipes.! so sad right.!!

PS: im turning into an avid book-reader, how timely. HAHA.


4.24PM
OUWH NO. i just realised. this laptop does not support bluebooth.! and the infrared function is equally dysfunctional making it redundant altogether.! the phone line socket for the internet have already been blocked by the plethora of boxes flooding this room- well, my bad. haha.

so how to transfer this fileee.???

grr. dumb muni, dumb.!

PS: we transfer files using floppy disc still.! haha.! i thought those things are obsolete already since my comp at home always turn bonkers when i used them. its apparently good here, been very helpful indeed.! haha.

Note to self: bring your OWN floppy disc tmr.! =))

5.18PM
_______ just called.! HAHA. it lasted like 10secs cos i quickly deny the offer. i shall not elaborate on what had happened when we (myra and me) went to apply for a job there. but it was, hahaha.

now it occured to me. my job here will end on friday.! after which, i have ntg to do againn. i should have at least given her a chance to elaborate the job offer riteee.? tsk tsk, see what prejudice does to you.! hahahaa.

talking abt denying job offers, i had another last week- temp for 5months.! i liked the sound of that, but redhill appears much to many kilometres to endure on a daily basis- so i had rejected without much contemplating. later on, i learnt that the venue is close to where daddy works, meaning, it'll be much less of a hassle to send/pick me.!

grr. dumb muni, dumb.!

so okay. back to work.

PS: i get my blog much for frequently updated in a day at work than in an hour at home.! HAHA. home time is much too precious for being wasted on blogging. so what does work time mean.? go figure.! haha.

PPS: and by the way, i AM doing my job well.! i tink about the books every second, even now as im typing. hahahaa.

5.47pm
im eating Crispy chocolate now, and its not crispy- its HARD. earlier today, msSupervisor did made a remark of how this room is like a freezer. NOW i agree with her. HAHA.

ouwh. and i wonder why school forbids us from eating in class- it's soo not applicable at work lahh. hahahaa. i rmb feeling the need to be discreet about eating in this room on my first few days. then i figured, they even prepare a pantry with microwave oven and fridge for us.! so go, eat to your heart's content.! hahahaa.

though i do not, mind you. haha.

work ends at 6.03pm- don't question why. haha.

but if im to head dad's advice, now would be the best time to switch of the laptop and start getting ready to leave for home.! hahaha. he was semi-angry yesty when i met him at 6.16pm.

"do you know how much 10mins of your time is worth.??"

hahahaa. i dint even realise it was already 6pm lahh. and worst, i've 3 sources of time in this room, all of which differ a considerable amount if every minute were to be deemed payable. hahahaa. ouwh-so-slenger.

so today, i WILL realise its already 6pm, early.! haha. till next timeee. good bye.! =))

PS: work is good.! hahahaa.


21 FEBRUARY 2008 Thursday
10.55PM

now how's that for an update about work after a week plus of hiatus, satisfied.? yayy.!

Good bye.! hee.


LOVE,
*MUNIRAH.

* ouwh myyy.!

you know.!

okay. i feel like a gossip queen, but no noo. aint my intention. hahahaa.

a student fell off the 4th storey from aimah's school, his life wasnt terminated of course. the school msged all the student's parents to inform them of the incident- partial information at least.

their students version sounded diff;
the boy jumped off the building- because his gf told him,
"GO AND DIE.!"

i admit, i did break off into laughters when i heard of the tale. how un-nice, tsk.! so i wont comment further.

but i've learnt a lesson.!
to stop telling guys, "go and die.!"
cos you'll never know if they're a suicidal case of the 4th floor.

well. it used to be my daily mantra actually, hahahaa.

the next time you act, think first okay.!
i'd pick being dead over self-inflicted physical damage.
like you're cant be any more thankful for the many little perfections God have granted you.?

hohoho.! =))


LOVE,
*MUNIRAH.!

* i've a lovely sidekick.!

hahahaa.

im really emotionally exhausted about relief teaching now. that wasnt the first unparalleled offer which i had accepted, and got called off. either that, or i cant accept it altogether cos i've made plans for the day.! grr.

perhaps its some kind of an augury, that i should reconsider coveting to be a teacher.
HAHA.

on a happier note.!
i had anotherrr job offer, two diff calls to be exact. short and long term. but both from the same company.? hahahaa. i decided to settle with the one week offer, cos the distance is horidly too considerable, not to mention the peak hours.! hahahaa.

yes, i dont quite fancy travelling. alone pulak tu.! so dad's sending me tmr morning. ahh, how pampered.! hahahaa.

anyway.! i made myra call the same place, hoping i'd get a familiar working company. and she called me back sounding ALL excited- that she got an interview.? hahahaa, that girl.!

so okayyy.! will be gone leaving mummy alone at home, for a week. ouwh.! i've yet to cheque in my prev unofficial job payment, dont ask how much.! grr. haha.

and and. thurs is somebody's birthday.! ouwh myyy. i cant help with the bakinggg. hahahaa.

ouwh well. for everything else.

syukur alhamdulillah.! =))


LOVE,
*MUNIRAH.!

* hikmah.

you know.

i was suppose to head over to my grand's for sleepover tonight. but there was a change of plans, for some reason. and because of that, im online tonight.! and a dear ex-innovian fren prompted me, for a job offer.! HEE.

well, we'll confirm stuffs tmr uh. so wouldnt want to get my hopes too high yet. but still.! my point is. there's stg good behind everything (i thought) bad.! okay, maybe im not making sense. pardon the oxygen-deprived brains. hahahaa.

will update soon.! whee. =))


LOVE,
*MUNIRAH.!

* the anniv celebration.

i've a pending update. haha.
rewind back to the 7th.!

ouwhh, lovely day. =))

i woke up to find that aimah and daddy were already gone, and the cake i baked were already cut for breakfast. so go figure what time it was, it was still less than 5hrs of sleep.! hahahaa.

so anyway. yada yada, we left home arnd 10+am to find an inexorable line ups of cars along the causeway. i even managed to doze off.! daddy called multiple time to check on our progress, haha. the two left earlier and were supposedly sending off daddy's bike to the workshop while we're stuck in traffic. ouwhh how clueless mummy was.

hahahaa.

after check-points, daddy called again and instructed abg dir to drive us to Hyatt Hotel and head to the cafe first. i am hereby please to announce that i learnt on that day- my sense of direction aint that atrocious afterall.! yayy.! hahahaa.

so we did reach the destination eventually, after making some wrong turns- which was amusing altogether of course, haha.! abg dir booked the buffet lunch, table for seven (ouwh myy, seven.!) and i accompanied mummy to the ladies. the little boys were already running up and down in joy, seriously, they have monkey ancestors. hahahaa.

(the ladies at Hyatt is pretty.! though a tad too dimly lit- suppose to create romantic vibes i guess.? hahahaa. and i had issues with the auto tissue dispenser.! HAH.)

left the ladies to run into aimah. and mummy got her surprise. daddy was finally clean-shaven and lost all his gorgeous locks.! (fyi. we made him kept them for 2+years cos we LOVE his long wavy hair which none of us girls have inherited, apparently. hahahaa.)

(ouwh, but we're much thankful for inheriting mummy's straight hair too.! hahahaa.)


* love, love.!

anyway.! we dined for i-dunno-how-long with much love going around the table. the plethora of food on the buffet tables were ouwh-so-tempting and they're scrumptious altogether.! i rmb commenting with aimah on every single food laid, and we did try grabbing every single one of them- almost.? hahahaa.

my little monkeys were the faithful drinks-fetcher, how sweet.!

ouwh.! there was a whole table of weird cheeses and breads. i was awed at first and had all the diff types on my plate, only to feel overwhelmed by it later on. veryyy cheesy, felt like Jerry the mouse. hahahaa. ouwh, and and.! there was this thing with a red outer layer, assumed it was one of the fancy cheeses.

well, it was a slice of apple. HAHA.

OUWH.! and not to mention the desert tables which was OMG.! hahahaa. literally, OMG.! aimah was rushing me on my main plate (im inherently a slow eater.) cos she was "takot nanti cake-cake dah habes.!" i assured her tat's ridiculous cos there were plenty.! but she was right, the cheesecakes were gone, kesian aimahhh.! HAHA. mummy said they're delicious, but nvm.! i was really already overwhelmed with cheese. hahahaa.

so nvm. we got one of each types of the otherrr cakes- plenty round the tables still.! OMG lah. hahahaa.


* aimah requested a pic with her lovely plate, ouwhh sinful.! hahahaa.



* and that's my, erms, left-overs.? yes, i did felt guilty.! but i tried.! hahahaa.

so anyway. food aside, back to the main story. it was my parent's anniv.! HEE.


* the amount of love they've cultured in 21 years.

WE LOVE MUM & DAD.! =)))

the rest of the day was blissful. so was the next day.

headed over to the grandparents on friday. two other sets were there too. all till the night. LOVE*

and saturday, we went for a boardwalk.! WHEE. i love such family outings, haha. picture updates up next, insyallah.

and later today, im heading to grands' house again.! sleeping over for dunno-how-many days. accompanying atok for his hospital check-up tmr, cucu misali per.! hahahaa.

whatever happens next, i'll update.! ouwh my. i've pending outings with many darlings, i dont know who to start with. tsk. but i do know one thing.!

my life is pretty.! Hee.

syukur alhamdulillah,
for all tat it's worth. =))

take care you people.!

LOVE,
*MUNIRAH.

* the eves of their new year.

ouwhhh happy days, HEE.

rewind to yesterday.

evening. visited npt for some last minute important shopping with dear siblings, minus the big brother of course. least he had the initiative to send and pick us up.! and yes, we are very pampered kids. hahaha.

most of the shops were already closed btw, hoho.

after marghrib, date with darlings aye and maria. both were late, but its ntg new. thing is, i received one 'i'll be late' msg from maria after aye msged me to meet maria first cos aye was to be 'alarmingly late'. go figure.

so anyway. i crashed aye's house to ensure she'll be late, minus the 'alarming' part. yeah, im sucha sweet friend.! hahahaa. (she cursed me for that, of course. hahaha.)
and and.! Mrs Khan gave me orange juice, how nice.! HEE.

aye called the meet-up as TJJT Summit, for our rptjjt's Out With Curly movement. haha. BK as usual, lasted till almost mignight again. i cant even rmb having straight 3+hours of pure talking sessions back in ai-days. they're great company, much loves. =))


"OUT WITH CURLY.!" faces. hahahaa.

ouwh. we had some other company too, spontaneous coincidence. poor Raj, we kept hinting that its time for him to leave. hahaha. was nice to see him after 2+years uh, but we're having TJJT's mini reunion.! hahahaa.

aye brought odd-numbered oranges for us, erps. i brought some of the tarts. and we were supposeddd to wear cina costumes (proposed by aye herself.) , but aye is such an idiot. hahahaa.

in any case. all ends well i must say.! our summit concluded with all smiles.


* I LOVE AYE & MARIA.! my lovely sweethearts. =))

later. had a pretty extensive conversation with daddy that night. im just completely awed- i love how he does his job as my father. hee. =))

anyway.! couldnt sleep that night, cos of unfinished business. aimah was sucha coconut, she couldnt be of any help. grr. so anyway.! tat's the advantage of having many siblings, i will always get company at home.! haha.

we started after dad left for work, arnd 1am.? harun took over as my co-baker, of course he wasnt much of a kitchen assistant. but its okay.! i left him dealing with the M&Ms after he proved incapable of cracking eggs. (we had to stop the mixer twice to remove egg shells.!) hahaha.

harun left me halfway thru, woke up only to check on our finished product.! haha.


* in the fridge.! hee.

i lasted till 5+am okayy. was dead exhausted after that, but totally elated of course. WHEE.


*the 5.06am face. haha.

HAPPY 21st ANNIV
dearest most beloved MUM & DAD.!!
i love you two, forever and ever after.! =))


THE END.
(updates on anniv celebration, up next.! insyallah. whee.)


and ouwh. to lovely friends and whoever else i know,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.! hee.


Lots of LOVE,
*MUNIRAH.

*pineapple tarts.!

have i mentioned.?

i sat for my final theory test on monday's evening, and i saw my results there and then. left the class to print my results slip only to understand that the machine was down. so alright, i went down the stairs to the cafeteria to be greeted by my already excited sister and ever-so-composed daddy.

we were all set to maintain our expressions. daddy msged mummy whom im sure was already fidgeting at home, "prepare for emo." she then sent a string of msges to aimah, asking about my results and taunting that lying to her mum is sinful. hahaha.!

it was only until my abg asked, that i started having doubts of what i saw on the results screen. grr.

"merah tu fail lah.! kalau pass kan hijau.!"

and true enough, i did rmb seeing a green screen when i passed my basic theory test. i was very euphoric cos i had the printed results slip. this time, i saw a red screen, and i dint even have a results slip to confirm what i thot i saw.

okay, i really felt retarded.

so anyway. i asked dad to bring me to that place again, to book for my PDL. i was still half-sure of my results. idiotic, i know.

so we went there. got a que number. saw the machine back in action. so dad brilliantly went over, and attempted to print my results slip.

okay, confirmed. I PASSED.! yayyyyyy.!!

and we left home, dint book the PDL. hahahahaa. im so gonna kick my abg when he returns home later.! for making me doubt myself, and feeling lesser than thankful for the whole night.

another lesson learnt,
dont try cheating my mother when it comes to results. you'll start being convinced about yourself failing too. hahahaha.


we're baking pineapple tarts soon. dad's request. feeling-feeling cny gitu.? no.! haha. its a pending project of mine, since months ago. procrastination, hoho.

anyway. mum is in a cranky mood now. she's sick or stg. i get cranky when she does. so im actually dreading this thing im suppose to do already.

ouwh well. i shall mind my own business filling tarts and make myself happy by the thoughts of my results slip. i can do that, ey.? hahahaa.

yeah. im truly euphoric now.
I PASSED.! without a doubt.! hahahaa.


LOVE,
*MUNIRAH.

* first for the year.!

Happy New Year.!!! WHEE.

hahaha.!

i do admit, i am atrocious.
this blog was well more alive during my busy-cum-hectic A's days then it was at ouwh-so-free post-A's days, tsk tsk.

pardon the period of hiatus. it was definitely uncalled for, my bad.

and well yes,
i do miss blogging. =))

but well. updates next time, haha.!


LOVE,
*MUNI.


PS: i gave up trying to upload the template i did, blogger is so stubborn nowadays.! theirs shall suffice for a revamp i guess. ouwh well. HEE.

* when life is pretty.

hello.! haha.

you noe.
although i've nothing important to do most of the time, im engulfed by sheer laziness to update this dear blog of mine. it is especially aggravated when i have a lottt to blog about. haha.!

so pardon the longgg absence.

anyway. here's something i got from my email.
it ends with stg like 'share it' and well. im not fond of forwarding emails. haha. so here's to my blog readers.

ouwh. and cos i think it's pretty.
like an extended english literary version of what i usually would pray for.
sums up my 1+ week blogging MIA. =))

.....
Oh Allah, I thank You for this day.
I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning.
I'm blessed because You are a forgiving Allah and an understanding Allah.
You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me.
Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you..
I ask now for Your forgiveness.
Please keep me safe from all danger and harm.
Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.
Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.
Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things.
Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over.
And It's the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits.
Continue to use me to do what You will,
Oh Allah. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others.
Keep me strong that I may help the weak...
Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others.
I make duah for those that are lost and can't find their way.
I make duah for those that are misjudged and misunderstood.
I make duah for those who don't know You.

I make duah for those that don't believe.
But I thank You that I believe.
I believe that Allah swt. changes people and Allah swt. changes things.
I make duah for all my sisters and brothers.
For each and every family member in their households.
I make duah for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met.
I make duah that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than our Rabb.
Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight.
I make duah that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees it,
Inshallah, ameen.
May Allah swt. bless & protect you,
Inshallah, Ameen.
Oh Allah, my Rabb
I love you and your Nabi, Muhammad saw.
.....

amin, ya rabbal'alamin. =)


usaha tu wajib, keberhasilan tu hak tuhan.
-my wiseoldman, haha.

i tink prayers sound nice in any languages, when you mean it.
so im picking up Arab.! at my own pace. then i'll get to practice conversation with my little cousins. shant be hard to catch up, i hope.

one just taught me a word.
jamilahtun = pretty.!
HAHA.

why that word.? go figure.


Life is _______.


Love,
*Munirah. =)

* familove.!

yesty was,

GORGEOUS.! nyahahaa.

i have a lot a lot a lot of stuffs that i wannnt to type. the day was eventful, that's why. but im just pure lazy now lah. lasted 32 waking hours yesty, wee.! haha.

i hope my lil adeks will update their version, so that shud suffice for my memory's sake.

i hearttt such family outings.! and i love the family lah please. more than worddds. =)))


euphoric to meet lala yesty.! impromptu meet-up. though was only a tiny while, was sweet.!
euphoric to receive a phonecall from maria too.! though again, lasted a tiny while.
and tmr. euphoric for another date with fadh, yayy.!

anddd. not that im bothered in the first place, cos im not quite fanatic about this whole idols thingy. but i cant believe hady wonnn.! perhaps its attributed to spore's higher SOL to be able to vote moreee, haha. happy for him nonetheless. =))

and i find my neighbour's outburst after the announcement, utterly amusing. they're very patriotic, actually. though they've many migrated members. its a similar scene during soccer seasons. nyaah.

ouwh. yesty morning, Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium.! the story was, zzZZ. haha. though i did ___ at a particular scene, its really catered to people like, my adek2. haha.

yesty night. I AM LEGEND.! omggg. its morbid, hilarious[im serious!], intriguing, emotional, exciting, disgusting, etc etc.

and i highly recommend it.! bring your little siblings along too, for greater amusement.! i had fun.! nyahahaa.
i guess i layed too low expectations for it, im not that fond of fictatious stories involving aliens. turned out, they're not aliens lahhh.
it danced along the realms of possibility when medical science go wrong, that's why i was entertained. haha.! if you took H2 Biology for A's, and love the Application Syllabus, then you must watch this.

mrsY should use this next for post-lecture movie review, like what we did for The Island and Gattaca [spelling unsure]. intellectually engaging okayy, from a biologist's perspective.! haha.

and then. overnight marathon with the whole series of HEROES. even musa joined me, first time.! haha. another reminder of biology lessons; evolution, natural selection, gene mutation, codons, human genome project.! nyahahaa.

thank god we dint have commercials slot in, it would have been a tremendously irritating sensation.! haha.

ouwh. our disc 3 was idiotically converted, so we still missed a few episodes. heh.
imagine my lil brother changing the disc and pressing play at 2.57am, expecting heroes to appear, only to preview Orang Minyak and the devil in action.! HAHA. amusing lahhh, but idiotic too.

and of course. updated our dvd's collection from the johor trip. so lala dear, call up for another marathon soon.! hee.

okay. im off.! i hope the marathonings have not permanently damaged my biological clock. i need to be my normal self and wake up normally for a normal day with normal pple.

nyahahaa.

ouwh.! our word game got stuck at 'x' with more than 3 syllable. lala made 'Xenophobia' my fav word, so im off.! yayy. was funnn, cos kids say the darrrnest thing.! hahaha.

i love the familyyy.! =)))


weehee.!
*MUNIRAHHH.

* un-homebound me.!

and here comes another weekend.

wee hee.!

it's Family Day later today, come here me cheer.! yayyys.!


the family. mrt rides. theatre. popcorns and drinks. drive up. etc etc etc.! hee* which also means. i need to sleep, NOW. nyahahaa.

quick update - i love my life, haha.

and yes. mornings to yall.! =))


all smiles.
MUNIRAH.!

* twenty good years.

haha. that comedy show this evening was simply amusing.

in any case. that's not why im here. i feel the need to narrate an event today. rahhh*


somebody was voicing out about a trip to genting with his friends, when ____ [not myself, yet! haha.] interrupted with stg skeptical- quoting back ups like its the raining season etc etc.

i tink. this somebody must have misconstrued ____'s harmless concern as a prognostication of her inability to let somebody fly off from the nest. heh.

this somebody suddenly made an outburst
"i'll be twenty next year!"
which i find utterly inappropriate considering how ridiculous it sounded when its ____ he was talking to, and that ____ had only slightly misunderstood the context of the discussion.

i also find the outburst inappropriate considering the lack of pre-frontal lobe development accompanying the stipulated age, on his part.

and so. being the outspoken me, as it is. i blatantly made a remark.
"then remember the responsibilities of being twenty.!"

and i admit, that on my part, i may have been wrong to react impulsively yet again. but i was merely retaliating on a point that he have been utterly oblivious about. or perhaps so frequently forgot.? i dunno.

any way. so what are the replies of a somebody i've tried so hard to find reasons for giving respect besides that of status quo.?

"ahhh, diam lah kau.!"
top of the somebody's voice. period.


and now im finding solace frm blogging.! herr.

somebody's counter has just made two steps back in the game of 'deserve your respect'. yet again. i'm not helping, i know. but why must it always appear to be my fault, i do not know.

but im perfectly fine with it. uhhuh.

just like how my life is perfectly pretty,
minus all these. =)


descriptive writing recollected,
Munirah.


PS: im not seeking justification from here, so please do not reply anything regarding this post on my tagboard. haha.

PPS: and. please do not make me talk if you need greater elucidation of my perspective. because i will only breakdown, im serious. hoho.

* you've got mail.

i dunno where to start.

having all the time in the world actually makes me think a lot about all other random things. perhaps things i should not be thinking of to begin with.

and so of course. that would make them things i should not be blogging about. nyahahaa.

so there you have it.

an update, by your forever miss all smiles.

and i cant get more appreciative than all this.


life is love,
*munirah.


PS: sat-sun weddings were pretty. but im missing the innocent days where we cousins get to be the little kendarat crew and be ignorant of wedding politics. old people can get so trivial. but who cares, im still being loved. haha.

PPS: do you know that ice creams are great for easing boredom.? uhhuh. especially when there's a constant free supply. nyaah.

PPPS: i loveee rainy days.! but i tink its causing me pain. tissues pleaseee. or perhaps its the icecreams. hoho.

* defining love.

a girl's charmed life.

FAMILY.
the members. the outings.

early morning drive. coffeeshop breakfast, pratas and teh tarik.

west coast park. playgrounds. sea shores. zephyr.
slow long walks. conversations. laughters.

random car rides. lck deserted roads. berries picking. plants, lanes of trees.
information. reminiscence. cemeteries [minus point.]. MOE's Jln Bahtera campsite.
home cooking. appreciation.

decisive. plannings. unmaking plans [minus point.].
driving license chats. dear friends.

family. family. family.

random. late nights.

sleep. oversleep. ter-oversleep. all the time in the world.!
ter-early wake ups, too.

hospitals. [minus point.]. clean toilets.! driven.

shopping mall wanderings, bugis junction. apple pies. mrt rides.!

meet-ups.!

FLOORBALL.
the game. the team.

the desolated venue, orange building. haha.

guys/girls Team Innova. 20mins turn takings. J1s/J2s. facing off. center-ing. defending. attacking. own-goaling. half-court scoringS. floor-rolling laughing. injuries. blind stick dividings. random groupings. panting-dying-aching-twirling fun. pictures. guy's game, excitement.

warm-ups.! tsk tsk.

floorball. floorball. floorball.

non-condusive toilet [minus point]. toilet cramping craps. umbrella opening attempt. hot.! sunny. windy. my girls. conversations.

free flows. KFC. dinner talks. indecisiveness. good-byes. coach msging. hyper-ing. bus ride [minus!].

drop off. night walks. City Hall. pretty toilet.! Funan, Swensens. team voucher, free ice creams. earthquakes digging. pictures. feedback form filling. laughters. nonsenses.

my girls. my girls. my girls.

road-crossing. times two. Peninsulas wanderings. eh main hockey sey, FLOORBALL. laughs. mrt, no bouncing. so pack please. good-byes.

mrt ride, blissful. too much. yishun terminated. good-byes again.

night walk. home sweet home. chips more cookies.

HOME sweet HOME.

msg wake-ups. bustops. old school.! meet-ups. certificates. applications, times three. northpoint. sundaes, muffins.

ice cream days.

walk home. floodings.!

RAIN. rain. rain.!

more and more rain. wee.!

three days of my charmed life, recapitulated.


love defined,
*Munirah Bte Md Sani.


PS: stop questioning. just the way it is, life is pretty.! love it. =))

* uptown girls.

i love the movies tonight.


nyahahaa.


know how i rarely watch movies with my friends.? and i really mean, RAREly. i can count with just one hand, perhaps. ahah. well.


'Uptown Girls' happen to be among the few. that was after sec 2's streaming exams, i tink. hee.



sweet memories. those were the days. =)))




ouwh. my biological clock have gone cuckoo. but no worries. nothing teminal as of yet. ahah.

alright. Panic Room.! i pity that family uh. heh.


every ending is a new beginning,
*MUNIRAHHH.


PS: family is ALL the love i need now, uhhuh. i love my life lah please. nyahahaa. wee.! =))

* my roller coaster.

Wednesday - Thursday. gorgeous.

im still feeling all woozy from the weird sleeping hours. nyaah.

Abg Dir was our dear chauffeur for the night. was very nice of him.! Sweet.! Nyahahaa. Visited cpang for some supper supplies, and headed to pick aye up at 8pm. cost 30mins of our lifes thz to issues with our mobile phones. The whole thing was hilarious, really. Nyaah.

Had some nervous moments regarding the whereabouts of our chalet, thz to sya's msges.

"any sig landmark.?"
"hmms. Its dark? ... follow the road from change village. near OCH."

As I read the msg out loud in the comfort of the car,

"what’s OCH.?"
"old change hospital gaknyer?"
"OUWH. Muahahahahaa."

And we got lost from a couple of turns, only to realize that we've been traveling on netharavon and that we've passed the huge unattractive banner with 'Aloha' written - that place is very well lit at night, mind you.

you can even forget OCH is nearby, im serious.! Ahah.

There were a few awkwark moments initially, felt like we were crashing them when we've been invited actually. Sya's classmates were very friendly. But im such a social retard please; aye is worst. Nyaah.

Got acquainted with the bungalow, yes. Then hang outside – the night air tinged with aftermath of the rain was gorgeous - though wet, ahah. Found a reason to explore the areas for more supplies - aye's myth abt balding heads dint work. Nyahahaa.

So off we went, with my most trustworthy chauffeur. Somebody got uptight about forgetting to bring her wallet. Tsk tsk.

"its not on my dining table, I called home. I'll dig my bag again later."
"maybe it dropped in the car?"
"no lah, impossible."

So we bought more supplies. At Cheers and that foodcourt. Walking around there felt weird without my parents. Was hopeful to see some pons, but disappointed. Headed back to the carpark, to realize my dear chauffeur dint lock the car.! Omg.

Checked the interior to see if anything was missing, alhamdulillah ntg weird happened. BUT.

"OMG. MY WALLET.! HAHAHAHAHAA."
"HAHA.! so much for no lah impossible, you idiot.! Nyahahaa."

So that spells the end of aye's uptight moments. Now she's got money and ezlink card to go home.! Hah.

Good bye to my dear chauffeur. Leaving me, aimah, and aye at Bungalow F. no, im not cursing. that's the chalet's alphabet. ahah.

Yada yada yada. We eventually migrated from level 2 where we watched half of 'PRIDE AND PREJUDICE' (haha.) to the level 1 bedroom where we finished 'Meet The Fockers'. Yes, very old vids indeed - somebody forgot that she was supposed to bring dvd supplies.! WHO UH.?!

SSSSSSSS - HOEEEEEEE.!
- cute kid from the show mimicking the fav words of aye. Muahahaa.

When all done. Dearest Sya forced us to break out from our refuge and join the other inmates in the hall. There, we engaged in a game of UPWORDS where we learnt that 'two heads are better than one'. Followed by a series of UNO where each of us can only uno-game first twice in a night. coincidentally.?

someone was struggling not to be on the bottom table, haha.

Old-school games, gorgeous for a change. i actually forgot how tat game works, can you believe it.? Tsk tsk.

It got stale after a while, I was multi-tasking between not letting aye win, and building a pyramid with the mahjong blocks. Ouwh no noo, we did not gamble. Ahah.

Around 3am. Our rock-bottom moments disappeared as "we've exceeded the threshold of being sleepy" Sya explains. Ahah. the other inmates turn in around 4am. so we talked. And we laughed. And we talk talk talk to our heart's contentment.

My hp alarm rang, it was 6am.! And we dint even realize time was flying. Ouwh, the luxury of having all the time in the world. =))

The night was gorgeous. i'll miss moments like this. Sya even lost her voice.! Hee.

Soon, inmates woke up one by one for breakfast. We watched the same scene on Channel News Asia 3 times.! 7am, 8am, and 9am. ahah. fixed the meeting time/venue with the other half of SCAMZS. And we returned to our room.

Yada yada. Forced myself to get a nap at least. I tink sya woke me up an hour later. Showered, got dressed, packed up. And off we went at around 12pm. We're finally free.!

Aye just kept saying the place feels like a juvenile home, you see. The curtains, furnishing, and what nots. Makes me wonder how she knows a juvenile home feels like in the first place. Ahah.!

THANK YOU SYAHIDA DARLING.! For the invite.! Wee hee.!

Managed to snap a few pics. The bus stop was at a very convenient location. =)

29-ed to Tamp. 969-ed to Yishun.! On foot to BK yish GV. And we were right on time! 1.30pm sharp. Hee.

The bus ride was longgg. I prefer the mrt, hee. But ouwh well.! Lovely talk with aimah, though she's always stoning as usual. Nyahahaa.

Yada yada yada.

Bought food. NAZ joined.! Wee. Ate, talked, laughed. Many interrupting phonecalls. Finished eating, talked, laughed. Thennnn, an hour later. YUNI and CHER joined.! Wee hee.

So there you have it. SCAMZS reunited 3 months earlier before our annual anniversary meet-ups. Hee.

More and more talkings. And laughings, crappings, stonings, lip-readings, whatnots.

Two hours later, we almost decided to make a move. Took pictures-pictures before goodbyes, the rudimentary. Thz to aimah for her photographic help.? Ahah. Shifted to another seat with prettier sitting arrangement. Only to end up talking moreeee there. Nyahahaaa.

Sya left us, cos she was totally stoning already. Rock bottom, aye says. 31+ hours spent waking plus lost of voice.? gosh, poor thing.

I learnt that aye and me are truly best friends, cos we do not use the same shampoo? Ouwh, and we turned to look. Credits to Cher's analysis. Nyahahaa.

The conversation moved to random topics. Ended up bitching about some ex-ai pple whom I dint bother to get acquainted with in the first place, I lost interest in the subject. Bottoms were already tired, so decided to head homeee. Well, the whole clique made a move too eventually. Ahah.

So we left together, to the ladies, and eventually dispersed at the top of the main escalator.

So that's the end of another pretty SCAMZS meet up.

Members : Shafinaz, Cheryl, Ayuni, Munirah, Zahirah, Syahida.
Date : 29 November 2007
Time : 1.30 – 5.30 pm
Venue : Burger King Golden Village Yishun
Purpose:
Clearing the I-MISS-SCAMZS syndrome.
Rejoice in the POST-EXAMS PERIOD.


Minuted by :
MS MUNIRAH BTE M.S.
The 'M' in SCAMZS.


PS: I love my gorgeous darlings.! Every initials in SCAMZS. Wee.!

PPS: I've missed my home sweet home, hee. Ouwh, and the people in it.

PPPS: Im sorry about the online convo, for no longer being much of a confidante. You put me in an awkward position please.

PPPPS: And im sorry about the string of msges, I hope all ends well for us both. InsyaAllah. Again, thanks for everything. =))

* stop. rewind. play.

tuesday.

postponed blading with lala, cos i decided to clean up my room. HAH. sorry gerl.

shifted here and there. its much spacious, though im still not contented. im just too filled with languor to continue. plus, its not like im getting much of a help around here - to think that the amount of dust accumulated was actually contributed by two people at least. bleargh.

and yes, with the dust and all. it's inherent that i get cranky when im cleaning up my room. so please. leave it.

ouwh. i do not understand. it's disturbing either or.

i want college days all over again. then i'll get to sleep at 2 every morning. and still wake up at 6 every morning. tired, but not feeling useless.

what defines the freedom after exams when i spend waking hours _____ _______ and getting heartaches from _____ ______ when my nights would be an undisputable peaceful alternative. even that is wrong.

perhaps its disgusting that ladies turn nocturnal. hmms.

i want to get out and work. so i wont feel so lame and lousy at home.

i need ___ to be ____ ____. so i'll find it easier to give respect when responsibilities that ties with that respect being due are done. even the story of that reject-ntu-go-nie guy dint seem to ring any bells in ___ head. perhaps im being selfish and nonsensical to expect ___ to grow up. but with him being just as ______, i'm feeling more useless than ever at home.!

ouwh people. him is not referring to my dad.
my dad is very well indeed.
him is the other one im not sure to intepret as being ignorant or purely having under-developed pre-frontal lobes.

if the first. i'll find hard to give respect.
if the second. i'll be very afraid right now. plus that of the first.

and im not sure why im ____ target when i've spent lesser school-less days being useless than ____.

im still feeling cranky from post-spring-cleaning session. it would have been a much pleasant activity if i had done it in my i've-all-the-time-in-the-world spirits. ironically, i do have all the time in the world.! so why was i feeling rushed.? hmms. nvm that. im glad my room is all, cleaner.

meeting sya and aye online is such a pleasant break from my useless-ness. im glad i've been granted permission to overnight with them at the chalet on wednesday. precisely what i needed. my old darlings. woo hoo. such timely moment.

babes night, sya said. yeahh, been a very long while.
'i'll bring some pills cos im scared of needles', aye said.
she already donated blood twice okay.! nonsense. nyahahaa.

dear parents of mine, do not worry. you've taught me well. =)
i will not succumb to such, cos my pre-frontal lobe is pretty developed.? nyaah.

after my last entry, six people still had to ask me if im going for prom. i guess typing 'ps:...' here doesnt work. but i still like 'ps:...'-ing. nyaah.

dont forget to send me pics of midas' touches.! and i'll post plenty of our chalet nite, if we resort to camera-[i do not like using this word] after the pills. nyahahaa. joking.

least i'll come home to a cleannn room on thurs ey.! wee.

im still amuse how my blog entries always end with me being on hyped-mode. despite usually starting with tinges of depressions.

im still feeling useless btw. and fyi. i've just turned down an offer to relief teach. guess as what.?
some malay communication thingy. gosh.! i can never force myself to speak in baku malay like the kind spore's edu system forces us to.! i'd feel so, fake.?

hidup pasar.! ikan selar kuning ni sekilo braper cik.? muahaa.

[reminded me of a conver i had with one of my dearrr uncle. hilariously pityful.? hmms.]

ouwh. i've lost my fingerprints again. the thumb and pointer.

who needs an accomplice to murder someone.? hire me. i wont leave a trail.! hoho.

witness spastic in action. im done. hee. nites.!

it's 1.12am now. im gonna pray. and sleep.! so that i'll wake up early tmr.! for what.? no idea.

lets hope i dun miss subuh. if i stay up the whole night, i knowww i wont miss my subuh.! but ouwh well. i shall revert to being a normal lady who sleeps at night and wakes up in the morning from now on ey.

if that makes you happy. omg.! since when i turn to becoming so trivial and childish.?!

ouwh. maybe since i realise its okay to indulge in a series of 'Go-Go-Power-Rangers.!' at the age of __ and still be the apple of ____'s eyes.

omg. i really am so trivial.! damn it. im sorry to whom ever i've so ignorantly made a mockery of.

i really am sorry.

shit. i feel like crying, again. but i wont. cos i want to sleep, telling myself that i am a happy kid.

i am a happy kid.! when i stop being trivial. i really am.!
have always been, and will always be.

learn to appreciate.
life aint all unfair.
it's pretty, in fact.

alhamdulillah, for everything else.


sorry, a million times.
*munirah.

ps: this was typed in front of a fan, a day after i realised im useless. you do not want to know what i've typed preceding this posted entry. nah'uh.

pps: the chalet plan with babes was utterly impromtu. so exciting.! wee. =))

*ending of an end.?

OUWH MY GOD.

this really is the day.! it really has ended.! it is really all over.!

im feeling very, very spastic.

i was fidgeting about half an hour before the paper ended, cos i had surprisingly finished it superrr early. ouwh my.

annd. i was repeatedly versing "alhamdulillah" the moment that nice invigilator collected my script today.! even hum this super old Raihan tune. haha.!

at the same time. it ended all too soon.! two years of my life just went, woosh.! done. depressing, dont you think.?

i enjoyed that last walk down the rows of table in the hall. it was gorgeous. haha.

tables D19. M2. and J19. =)

was euphoric seeing darling naz, pulled her to say "IT'S OVER.!" but instead, she turned all euphoric herself and throw me a hugeee euphoric hug, shrieking stgs super sweet euphorically. gosh, i miss that darling. and all of a sudden, dee jumped over euphorically and throw me another superrr huge euphoric hug, i was shocked by the continuous burst of euphoria. both stopped hugging me, and hug among themselves. before dispersing to our separate ways after a short conver. god. okay, i've missed them both.

i've missed SCAMZS and TJJTs.

and im gona miss IJC. much muchh muchhh.

headed to the libraria where darling lala and me distributed the 23 11D Grad Videos we had meticulously prepared before the papers. yes, it was a very trying moment for us both to get it completed. nyahahaa.

i thought lala did a perfect job, i was very touched myself watching the vid. she burnt a copy for me too.! up to now, i've viewed it 4 times.! nyahahaa.

breakfast with darling 11D. i'm feeling more attached to these darlings after the two years being cgmates. probly cos its a smaller group that the kind of classes we had it sec school. in any case, i'll definitely miss them. much to my dismay.

separated later on. cos someone was SLEEPY, boo cookie.! nyahaa. was left with lala and sofy. ahh* they're great companies. bowling at SAFRA and lunch at LJS. blissful moments. =))

everything was random impromtu btw.

met Sya darling at GV.! OMG. super pleasant surprise.! i miss that ladyyy.! was literally running from my seat to her.! though she dint give me a huge, sad, but least i MET her.! nyahahaa.
and aye msged to congratulate me for the completion of A's. she met dee, but not me.! boo.! so. i called her back to hear her voice.! ahah.! missed them both.

later. headed to my home, nearby. did our prayers, and watched the videos. ahh* pretty. ahah. my house, no no, my ROOM was in a mess.! it still is actually, haha. thot i'd be paisey, but ouwh well. they comforted me by challenging who's room is messier. haha.!

post-exam states. =)

overall. veryyy pleasant. i miss laughing so much. my stomach hurts.

and ouwh. i ran with aimah in the evening, haha.! like erps. finally.! dun ask how long, haha.

yada yada yada.

aimah is another wonderful company. nyahahaa.

im heading to lala's house again tmr.! third for the week.? tsk tsk. ahah. least she promised she'd vacuum her room today.! nyaah.

okay. im gonna do what i've promised myself at the start of A's.

WATCH PRIDE & PREJUDICE AT THE END OF A'S.!
one solid month of resisting this temptation okayyy. nyahahaa.

i lost count of how many times i've played that dvd. but who cares.! i've alllll the time in the world now.! nyahahaa.

ouwh ouwhh.! the freelance job i did on monday was soo time-consuming.! and i had another batch yesty nite. can you imagine, the day before Bio Paper 1.?! thank god the paper went smoothly today. hee.

alhamdulillah.

ouwh goddd.

im so gonna miss college days.!

and we just got reminded today, that our ezlink card would soon turn void.! nyahaa.

im missing the need to study already, haha.

okay. im missing a lot of things already. how short-sighted i've been all these while.! there's still too long a journey ahead.

ahhhhhh*

and and. i dint do one thing i was suppose to do today. im sorry.

okay nvm. im done.

22/11/2007. pretty pretty.

once again. alhamdulillah, syukur nikmat. hee. =)


PRIDE AND PREJUDICE,
*MUNIRAH.


ps: and dear people. im nottt wearing a dress, and im soo nottt with any guy.! yes, the answer is NO. i'm not going for prom.! nyahaa.
and and. for reasons i do not wish to impose on yall, so dont ask why.? but Have Fun ey.! hee. =))

*two days, say yayyy.!

omg.

im using my abg's comp. and its soooo frigging fast.! relatively to mine or the laptop, that is. rahhh.!

sometimes. i really hope people would stop emailing me, ahah. but i tend to find 'religious' emails elucidating, minus the 'pls forward this...' part. nyahahaa. was in a mood of clearing up my 302 unread emails, when i found an article.

here's a portion, if you bother reading...


Di akhirat nanti ada 4 golongan lelaki yg akan ditarik masuk ke neraka oleh wanita. Lelaki itu adalah mereka yg tidak memberikan hak kpd wanita dan tidak menjaga amanah itu. Mereka ialah:

1. Ayahnya. Apabila seseorang yg bergelar ayah tidak mempedulikan anak2 perempuannya didunia. Dia tidak memberikan segala keperluan agama seperti mengajar solat, mengaji dan sebagainya Dia membiarkan anak2 perempuannya tidak menutup aurat. Tidak cukup kalau dgn hanya memberi kemewahan dunia sahaja. Maka dia akan ditarik ke neraka oleh anaknya.

(p/s; Duhai lelaki yg bergelar ayah, bagaimanakah hal keadaan anak perempuanmu sekarang? Adakah kau mengajarnya bersolat & saum?..menutup aurat?..pengetahuan agama?.. Jika tidak cukup salah satunya, maka bersedialah utk menjadi bahan bakar neraka jahanam.)

if you're wondering. the husband's at #2, brothers at #3 and sons at #4. =)


uhhuh.
it sounds scary, that your sins are not only made accountable to yourself but the people around you whom you love.

i hope i wont be the one dragging my love ones down there, insyaAllah.

dan kepada kawan-kawan kesayanganku. i do not mean to be so blatant, but please. think about it. you people are already so pretty. Singapore's 'muslim' community may no longer place so much emphasis on wearing tudungs, but what's with the added effort of mendedahkan diri korang.? equivalent to the efforts of pulling your fathers down thereee.? tsk tsk.

i used to feel disappointed/pityful/saddd seeing people i know, like that.
now. i feel more sad for the parents, instead of for the friends.
hoho.

[sorry, my language sounds weird here. fusions of eng and karat-malay. ahah.]

in any case.! today.
im PISSED at _____. for 10 seconds while waiting for her ezlink to be topped up. for being so ignorant of her card value that i've to pass her moneyyy when i've already entered the mrt gantry [whatever you call it]. rahhh.!
im PISSED at _____. for about 10 seconds while typing an sms. cos she stood me up, rahhh.!
im PISSED at HOTMAIL. for about 10 mins for preventing me from viewing an important email.!

so. that's 10mins 20secs of being pissed today. haiii* whom ever involved,
i sooo wanna hate you, but
I LOVE YOU PLEASEEE.!
nyahahaa.

ouwh. A's gonna enddd.! wee.!
god. i love 22nd. haha.

and ouwh. yes. im already getting employed, from home. ahah.! that's the rudimentary reason for my mailbox spring cleaning session. simple admin work, not much of a pay, but its okayyy. let me do stg more beneficial with the laptop. frm HOME. hoho.

and anddd. i hope JPS needs relief teachers early next year. then i can see my brothers while at work, nearrr HOME. nyahahaa. just received the email that i've been registered by MOE. so exciting.! HAHA. =))))

to ____,
do not fret. i'll alwayyys be your home-bound girl.! not by force, but by choice. nyahahaa.

i find it amusing how my cgmates would always refer to me when they're picking venues for cg-outing. cos i generally refuse to go far-far, and they'll miss me. rite aixin.?? ahah.!

and so. everyone will noe. that my fav outing place is...? _________.! wee.

ouwh wait.! i forgot.! BIO paper 3 updates.
was weeheeeee.! only one paper lefffft! nyahahaa.

still couldnt complete my prelim papers during practice the night before, so that got me pretty nervous. but guess what. i completed A's in 1hr 30mins.! im still not understanding the mechanism of my brain. how it refuses to function at high speed during normal hours even if i force myself to (like when im eating, ahah!) but miraculously doing so only under exam conditions.

ouwh no. edit. it was still stubborn during prelims.
only under A's exam conditions. haha.

the structured questions were manageable. there wasnt any truncation of my thoughtlines in the 9 pages. except.! the last very retarding qns about nitrogen compounds which did not even sound like a bio qns.! i did crapped stg, which sounded rite, but ouwh well. thank god its 2 disposable marks, ahah.!

BUT. the one-choose-ONE essay was rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

feel the sentiments.? it got me breathless. nyahahaa. the very one chapter of lect notes which i chose to 'skim thru' costed 2o marks. NOT disposable okayyy. i wasnt much interested about SCID or CFTRs to commit them into my limited memory space. yada yada yadaaa.

well. least i did vaguely rmb a mutation of the CFTR gene which causes the deletion of phenylalanine, where.? haha. preventing the efflux of Cl- ions and influx of Na+ ions and retention of water molecules, so.? haha. then.? haha. anddd.? haha.

one page of answer, with only one line dedicated to SCID.
"SCID is an inheritable disease which is caused by the mutation of genes coding for proteins involved in the functioning of the immune system, thus producing dysfunctional polypeptides..."
i can imagine what MrsY wud have done to my script...

red markings with 'WHERE.?' 'SO.?' 'HOW.?' anddd 'YOUR HEAD AH!'.
nyahahaa. i'll miss that. im not even sure if SCID is inheritable, sh*t. and NOthing came out abt the human genome project. laughhhh.

okay. shall stop abt bio. i've shading-squares paper on thurs. wee wee.

roamed arnd sch after that, taking pics of our venues of enlightenment as if A's is over. and we got a pic of a blue place, reminds me of the day SCAMZS was formed. ahah.! i love them, the roaming people.

what we did after leaving IJ shall not be mentioned till after thurs. in case aixin drops by too early and figure out stg-stg. haha.

alright. this post is tooooooo longgggg.

omg, i just realised. the time on my abg's comp is soo retarded. its already 9.38pm but its 5hours outdated here. no wonder my abg is like that. ahah.! jokinggg.

kay. off off. sofia just recently found out that if the alarm clock ringsss, it just went off and not on. haha.!

alright. seriously. im gone. byeee.!

im feeling spastic talking to myself. okay, next victim.

aimahhh, where are youuuuuu.?

one last _____ to kill,
nyahahaa,
*muniRAHHHHH.

ps: its RAINING. and its LOVELY. i hate my abg for getting the windy-er room.! rahhh.! nyahahaa.

pps: i still do hate lifts. lala's house is highhh. nyahahaa.

ppps: i wanna eat.! hee. =)))))))))))

*my girl.!

aimah's home.! hee.!

and we're eating ChipsMore.! nyahahaa.

gosh. my 11D darlings just had a cookie party for lunch on friday, before our chem paper. and im eating cookies again.! im sooo getting ____.! wee.! nyahahaa.

aimah. cookies. RAIN. laptop. tv. what prettier way to spent my digression period. AHAH.

just five mins of homemakeover, i've teared. the amount of appreciation shown. was really touching please.! nyaah. i was amazed by how easily moved i got. which makes me realised. i may be laughing almost 24/7 but im actually super ________.

if throughout our course of friendship, you've witness moments of my breaking down. then i shall declare you, a truly darling friend of mine. and i love you so much.! nyahahaa.

wee hee.

and ouwh. dad asked me stg today. and im ______. again. hah.

okay. im off to continue with prelim papers. aimah shall stop being sucha distraction. ahah. but there's another distraction. the rain is so lovely.!

ahh* lovely.

nyahahaa.

no worries, i've slept enough. like a ___. so yes, i shall stay focus today. HAH.

cant wait for bio paper3 to end. cos then, i'll have a project to complete with dear lala.!
dead lines. woah.

so exciting. nyahahaa.


expression vectors of recombinant loves,
*MUNIrahhh.!

ps: i love bio, ahah.

un-deprived*

nyahahaa.

i kept typing 'On Hiatus' for the past uncountable entries yet im still updating at the rate i've always been obliviously on. have you realised.? ahah.

i'll do myself a favour by eradicating any temptations of typing 'On Hiatus' for this entry. since. it'll only last for FIVE days.

yeah baby. FIVE days to 22nd November 2007.! and my journey of an ending shall conclude.

im beginning to feel that i do not deserve to celebrate on 22nd. cos i've already lost the nerves surrounding A's, a week ago.! nyahahaa.

ouwh. thank god bio's my last two papers. least im able to preserve the momentum of muggings on the basis of love for the subject. imagine if it was _____.!

ahah, go figure.

exam updates. i was amuse by the intro to chem paper 2, ahah. completed paper 1, again for the first time in a very veryyy long time. overall. both were wayyy merciful than the frigging paper 3. though i shall not comment if they're sufficient to alleviate my paper3 idioticity. [im not sure if the word exist. it just sounds nice, ahah.]

econs was, a complete relieve to be over. nyahahaa. i hate the darn essay please. both case studies were of familiar context, all credits to MrC. but i hateee the darn essay pleaseee. the microecons qns was rahhh.! and i was forced to ans the macroecons qns instead.

when i've neverrr attempted a macro qns thruout the plethora of econs mock tests before, NEVER.

fiscal and monetary policies, you better not screw me up.! nyaah.

anyway. when to JPS [my two idiotic lil brothers' primary school] on thurs. yes, before Chem P1, ahah.

A Family Bliss- The Musical. performed by lil kiddds. OMG. simply adorable pleasee.! nyahahaa. nothing fascinating abt the plot, or the singings. just the mere fact of lil kids performing, wearing nonsensical 'monsterous' costumes. on stage. adorable lah. nyahahaa.

breaking away frm the rudimentary shows on tv, it was pretty. kudos to the lil JPS kids for such an entertainment. simple adorable.

n ouwh.! yuni's lil sister was up there performing too. she was smiling so huge, made me miss my primary school days.! nyahahaa.

anddd. rahhh.! MY DARLING SISTER IS GONE.!

for tonight, only. nyahahaa. some environmental club camp thingy, she'll be sleeping with the sharks at Sentosa's Underwater World. bleargh, why dint we get to do such fun things.? so much for being VC of Green Club in AI.! nyaahaa.

i hope she'll get to clean up the dolphin's droppings. muahahaa.

anddd. my family went to Johor today.! watched movie, yada yada. while i choosed to be left behind. why.?

because i love biology, haha.
i need to define stem cells, they are undifferentiated cell mass.! know where to find totipotent, pluripotent, and multipotent ones.
i need to define clones. and rmb to autoclave only the culture medium in tissue cloning instead of the whole explant. because subjecting them to high temp and pressure will kill my little plant, gong gong.
i know what's auxin and cytokinin.! ahah.
i need to rmb the temperatures for denaturation, hybridisation, and elongation during PCR.
do you know where taq polymerase comes from.? Thermophilus aquaticus.! i tink. underline the genus and species.! not needed in syllabus actually. nyahahaa*
i need to remind myself not to mix up molecular hybridisation and southern blotting.!
i need to phrase my ethical problems related to gene theraphy so that i wud not sound spastic writing a GP essay instead.!
i need to know that direct bombardment using gene gun is totally diff from microinjection, ahah.
and i've not attempted to rmb the viral and non-viral vectors in gene theraphy.! omggg.

okay. i've just successfully recalled some of the stuffs i rmb seeing today. and the list goes onnn..

which means. im unprepared for monday.! hoho.

and anddd. i was reprimanded by dear MrsY during consultation slot,
'AND YOU. WRITE DOWN WHAT YOU THINK.!'
cos i happen to always thinkkk out the correct answers, but i havent been writing them during exams. nyahahaa.

so so. practice practice practice.!

uhhuh. prelim papers, here i come.! but first, i wanna eat dinner. ahah.!

notice how excited i get about bio papers.? if only i've this much love for my other subjects, since the start of college days, i'll be love-drained by now.! nyahahaa*

i tink the conversation i had with dad earlier today was amusing. ahah.

ad i tink i've been eating a lot off late. but whatever. who cares about getting fattt when im stress.! ahah.!

alright. i'll do myself a favour by resuming my morning runs, soon. and i'll play floorball again.! soon.! ouwh no noo, you sooo cant stop me.! nyahahaa.

life's a bliss.
treasure the moments.
wee hee.


genomic libraries of love.
*MUNIrahhh.! =))

PS: i'll miss these days. where studying is all that matters. god, you're full of irony. nyahahaa.

still on HIATUS.

but i need this blog-therapy. why?

I SIMPLY REFUSE TO MUG TONIGHT.
haha.

spells failure on my part.? yes. tell me about it.

3 consecutive major papers for my H2 subjects. today's papers were better than yesty, but they're enough to drive me to complete languor.

please do not curse me if you happen to be among those H1 geographers with 4 consecutive papers. i emphatise, really i do. but having my darling H1 Econs flanked in between *bleargh* next week technically is of equivalent retardation on my part.

Chem's next, and im soo not looking forward to it considering how i've explicitly portrayed my inept self to the almighty cambridge examiners.

RAHHH.

05/11 - note that as my first tears-inducing A's paper. i'd do just as well not submitting that frigging script. to think that Chem was supposedly my strongest subject; it's devastating that im now worried about merely passing.

RAHHH.

[considering the plethora of effort MrL invested in me, i cant bring myself to face him if i screw up Chem. i'll hate myself for failing him. he got all emotional on his last day with us, i was ouwh-so-touched. his mood-swings have definitely impacted me in manyyy ways, i think i'll miss him. "the pen is mightier than a sword" he wrote to us. i'll use a pen to kill myself then, ahah.! heh. bedek.]

chem aside. i shall say that im relatively [highlight this word, relatively.] pleased with H2 Bio paper. completed it in 2hrs.! for the first time in my whole college history.! an achivement okayyy, despite blatantly skipping qns i term as having disposable marks.

[MrsY is so gonna strangle me when she reads this. AHAH.]

i cant recall what comes between King Phillips and the Green Soup. is Charles Darwin still alive.? my turn to strangle someone.! tsk.

quality wise, let's put a concealer ey.? heh.

[MrsY is definitely another tutor i'll miss- if i dare admit growing any more mature in thoughts throughout my whole college years, i'll attribute it to her. but! i've grown numb about disappointing her since i've longg accepted that i cant meet her expectation; doing better than her uncountable A's-filled cert. ahah. brutal reverse-psychoing; i'll be a teacher so i can do that just like her, ahah.! truly an inspiration.]

Math.? im not sure. i felt better upon completion of these papers, compared to my Prelims which i allllmost became a legend in class - quoted frm an idiotic cgmate. what im sure about, my papers arent mark upon 100%. they cant be. disposable marks.? ahah. tskkk.

[MrY's too nice, he wont strangle me. he'd always visit my seat in tutorials, glance at my script, appear sincerely emphatic, say 'dont worry, try harder next time!' and give a faint innocent smile before walking away - leaving me guilt-concentrated and on the verge of breaking down though im almost always able to convert those emotions into laughters which makes myself look apathic instead since i inexorably disappoint him. i wont get to be comforted like that for A's. He has the most patience, im ashame of my personal lack of effort. heh.]

though i hope i'll at least pull through with what effort i've put in these last sprints.

anddd. i hereby declare myself officially UNRELATED TO H2 MATH.! give me YAYs.! math is off the chart. permanently, presumably. unless of course, when i retake my A's next year. when, not if. hoho.

im not trying to input additional burden on my parent's mindframe, but maybe they should at least be mentally prepared to embrace that as my prospects for 2008. im utterly sorry to have been a disappointment again, i really am. heh.

General Paper.? ahah. i've seen A1, and i've seen F9. my language grades fluctuations are even more unpredictable than the hormone levels in me. ahah.! bottom line, though i did complete my papers; i shall not comment on GP.


ALRIGHT. im done lamenting. why did i even bother to cumbersomely elaborate about each papers.? so that i wouldnt be tempted to blog again for the next two weeks. makes sense.? yes, i'll let myself be deprived. ahah.

i've had many other non-A'levels related stuffs streaming through my mind that i wanted to blog about, but considering how long this entry already is, i'll pass. A's on top of my priority list now ey.?

YES.

do not worry, im still hanging on. persevering. =))


as much dreadful the thought of getting A's results would be, i cant wait. eradicate the nerves of anticipation earlier, the better.

to whom this may concern,
if i screw up my A's like i've been screwing up examinations throughout my college life, i'll have only myself to be blamed. i'll put it upon myself to make things right, and i willllllllll get myself a degree the way you've prayed for all my life. even if it takes more than the five years supposedly zero-family-obligations you gave when i first entered college.

on a more optimistic note, i can do it.! yay.! AHAH.
if i do get into a uni course next year, miraculously pulling through the URGH A's,
all that i can say would be.
alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah. hee. =)


"the best thing in life is to not want what you can have..." -wise old man, ahah.

i hope i get many, many best thingsss in life.
"i could have studied harddd and get triple A's, but i choose not to want it.?"

nyahahaa. sour grapeee.

okay, i'll get it.

and yes yes, im still hanging.! my parents really ought to stop worrying, though the great deal of concern they've splashed on me are much muchhh appreciated. motivating.


before you leave. once again, say a prayer for me please.?
it should contain these, "make the examiners lenient, give munirah good grades, and let her enter uni next year." nyahahaa.

thank you.! hee. =))

i tink im starting to sound spastic from excessive laughters despite being sunken deep into this trying moments of A's. hoho. it's not that i do not care, i just will not succumb to a state of depression from this stress. like PMS isnt sufficient enough.? nyahahaa*

alright, toodles.! weets. =))


All Smiles,
*MUNIRAHHH.


ps: googles search for ___ will not lead you to my blog unless you've alllll the time in the world, liarrr. hoho. all the lost times.

ON HIATUS, still.

my advances.

and the journey of an ending begins.

exciting.? hee.

my last official college day was heart-rending.
though non-conclusive; the ambiance of the sadistic examination was pervasive.
haha. okay, exaggerated.

nevertheless.! i look forward to my last official A'levels day.

22nd November 2007, a day already marked on my calender.

exciting.? hee.

till that day comes. endure with my entangled self. i shall continue to have obsessive-compulsive disorder for the next 23 odd days. in the spirits of mug-arathon.?
nyahahaa.

joking.

"do not lose to lazy people."
my motivation frm a teacher, uhhuh. ahah.

alright. my blog cobwebs-dusting ends here.
HIATUS resumes.

if you've faithfully read to this line,
say a prayer for me before you leave please.?
much, muchh appreciated. hee.

"God helps those who persevere."
another motivation frm a teacher, frm 'the Koran' he stated. ahah.


i felt intelligent when i sat for Streamings at Primary 4.
i felt smart when i sat for PSLE at Primary 6.
i felt "there are worst morons out there" [words of a ruthless yet somewhat motivating teacher] when i sat for O'levels.

havent my education journey been a blissful one.? ahah, totally.

i'm feeling ___ __ ___ _____ ____ as im sitting for A'levels.
fill in the blanks, you dont have to be positive. ahah.

not the optimistic one, but definitely still your happy-happy girl.


All Smiles,
*MUNIRAH. =))


PS: reminder. on HIATUS. hee.

* once upon a time.*

walking down memory lane;

pictures are worth a thousand words.

here's the top picks per event of my gorgeous, gorgeous week.

if any parts of the pictures below have anything to do with you

[yes, even the tiniest notes. hee.]

then this blog entry is a 'thank you' dedication going out to you.

once again, to all who rmb - much appreciated.! loves*

4th august.

another celebration with dearest most beloved family.! it's actually Aimah's bday, and a belated one for me. we missed 3rd aug cos i felt dead asleep at 7pm.! nyahahaa*

ouwh. shouting out to AIMAH.

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY DARLING.! =))

*our gorgeous personalised cake, specially baked by our gorgeous mum! loveee the hearts.! lpve the scrumptious cake.! LOVEs.! *

*the family's bday girls. she's my other half, preciously irreplaceable.! hee.*

*the pose with our most-touching card.

mine's a drawing block compilation by darling CGmates[masterminded by dearest A,K,S,M.!].

anddd aimah's a hearts compilation by family, made by ME.! nyaah.!*

*i've selfishly gotten the cake lighted up for myself. see, only my half of the cakes/candles were lighted.! check aimah's page to see her lighted side. ahah.!*

*the rudimentary candle-blowing process. i still cant get through the 'i wish...' part for the candle's melting while im so fickled.! for 18 yrs.! nyahahaa*

*the next rudimentary process. Cut cut, my precious cakeee.! its heartbreaking, totally. nyahahaa.*

*this was an impromtu cake-feeding process requested by dearest mum. ahah.! dont stare too long, okay, let's move on. nyahahaa.*

*daddy's little girls.! the pose before one of aimah's most controversial present, hilarious.! nyahahaa.*

2nd August

now this is the celebration that was not belated. and honestly, among the best ones on my list.

the elements of surprised, cheated, excited, touched, and what nots.

the most significant reason for my overwhelming plethora of euphoria and gratification was the fact that it was perfectly planned -

the company of my precious darlings in the midst of my most beloved family, and in the comfort of my favourite place; home sweet home.!

it spells perfection.! much LOVEs to all.! =))

*the gorgeous piece of artwork that truly awed me. i was made speechless for the moments after K/A presented it to me. but this pic was taken the day after. hee.*

*and this is my most dearest page of the whole drawing block series.! the darlings who perfected my 2nd august.! FRENZ 4EVER!! hee.*

*at the scene of crime at the exact time with the exact fraud mastermind.! i love that darling ouwh-so-much, and that gorgeous card is my favourite of the year.! nyahahaa.*

*this was the utterly unexpected.! another highlight of my day.! another HEARTs cake.! ouwh goshh, it was simply gorgeous. LOVEs.!*

*caught in my most unexpected moment, i was extremelyyy overwhelmed. too much emotions streaming through me, lucky lala's cam fails to capture the tiny details. ahhh.*

*that's my darling bday surprise crew.! Kimkee, Nabila, ShiRong, Aixin, MiaoDe.! I LOVE THEM ALL pleaseeee.! a real blessing to have my life crossed path with theirs. much muchh appreciated.!*

*another one with a different angle. Miao2 made me that balloon sculpture, he underestimated the size of my brain initially.! nyahahaa. after modification, it fits perfectly here. again. LOVE themmm.!*

*now look at that girl.! she was the crew's insider.! my sister is a cheaterrr.!! nyahahaa. perfect planning lahhh. love, loveee.*


okay. that's all i got from lala's cam for that eventful day. i've yet to get the rest from, the rest. nyahahaa. overall, they're the adorable white chocolates on my gorgeous heart cake.!

soon after they left, around 9pm, my mum and younger siblings took over.! i fell in love with all the gifts.! hee.! unluckily, dint get any family pic for it. sad saddd*

1st August

the day before, we had phototaking.! with my beloved Floorball Girls Team.

plus, handing over. new ExCo'08 members were revealed, and im pleased with all those who made it. depressingly, i wasnt there to see it happen. i wasnt part of the moment when my captaincy was stripped away.!

cos i had to donate blood at the most untimely moment. or rather, sheeee had to reveal it at my most untimely moment.

okay, i was sad on 1st august, though many memorable events took place. i was utterly sad. for oneee event. trivial on my part, but whatever, it's was MY_____.!

a mix of _____ towards _____ for making me feel ______ when im practically _________. haiiii*

anyway. spent some time preparing stg for the Adivs team, and well, my whole team. here's just one of the stg. aint so proud of it now, since i dint even get to say a formal goodbye. haiiiiiiiiii*

because of that particular _______, i felt uncompassionate about my supposedly compassionate service to the society. urghhh* i felt heartless then, and that's a sucky feeling to be having while ur blood's being drained out okayyy. gosh. Ms___, i ___________ okay.

nonetheless. the aftermath of blood donation was nice. there was still a tinge of satisfaction, i guess. minus the ______, this was definitely a memorable event. thanks to Lala for dragging me impromptu-ly. ahahh.

*with lala in line, waiting for our fingers to be pricked. we've got enough iron, yayy.! ahah.*

*Blood Donation.! darlings accompanying me in the process. sweet of themmm.! i was touched, really. and it dint hurt at all, really.*

*the final pose with my bandaged arm before removing it for a shower. it's pinkkk, i still have it. ahah.!*




okay, back to bday stories. to sum up this entry, look at all my gifts.! i love stacking them up for display on my bed, cos it makes my siblings envious. nyahahaa.! this yr's structure was confusing, hohoho.

here's pics before i demolish the structure. credits to aimah and my cam phone. =)

*my gorgeous structure. nyahahaa.*

*my precious, right smiles.!*

*and myyy precious, left smiles!*

alright. seriously, this is the end. pretty pictures yeahhh.

memories worth a lifetime please.

once again, to all that matters.

Thankkk youuuuu.!

LOVE, LOVEs.! hee. =))

Yours Truly,

*MUNIrahhh.! =))

PS: i may be eighteen but i still wanna be childish.! young at hearts yeahhh, nyahahaa. forever mummy's/daddy's little girl.! hee.

* hearts-filled gorgeous day.

OMG.

the surprise was spectacular. im touched, every single tiniest bit of the thoughts and efforts.

here's a summary; my 2nd august 2007 was simply gorgeous.! hee.

to all the lovely people who made my day - from dear well-wishers, msgers, msn-ers, testimonial-ers, gift-ers and sing-ers;
THANKS A HEAP. yall definitely will neverrr be forgotten. =))

to my beloved family - HEARTS*
my siblings are ouwh-so-irritatingly-adorable.! all 4 of them, love.! hee.
though im officially eighteen and supposedly liberated - my parents are the most dearest people in my life! yes dad, i'll let mum win for this reason.! ahah*

to dearest AIXIN, MIAO2, KIMKEE, AHRONG, anddd LALA.!!!
i dedicate this section of my bday update to you five.
i am utterly gratified. THANK YOU is an understatement. the whole _____ was perfect, simply perfect. i was lost for words. i still am touched. you people are the gorgeous white chocolates on my gorgeous heart cake today.!
ouwh, of course.! you girls/guys are gorgeous.! i love you girls.! [and thanks you guys.! ahah.]
[sorry, no details here.]

okay, okay. stop muni.

ey. im still very touched. today was prettyyyy. love, loveee.!


love love love,
*MUNIrahhh. =))

ps: another pretty start. hee.

* all good things.

...come to an end.

ouwh-too soon. well, ouwh well.

my last day being seventeen, was memorable indeed.
firstly. i got stripped from my captaincy. *heartbreaks*
ahah. but im proud of the next Ex-Cos.
secondly. i DONATEd my BLOOD. i feel good.!
a whole year's postponement. nyahahaa.

seventeen was gorgeous, definitely.
much love to all that matters. hee.


love,
*MUNIrahhh.

ps: still on hiatus.! hoho. =(